Friday 31 August 2007

Catching the virus - 2

If you are following these rambles, you will immediately discover that my prime obsession is masturbation. There, I've said it. Somehow , seeing it there in black and white immediately makes me feel an urge to justify or explain it. It makes me want to explain things like: I'm a normal person ; I live a normal fulfilled life; I have many friends, relationships, family ; I 'm not some weirdo etc etc. Given everybody does it , why is it a big deal?

I can't justify it or explain it, I just love doing it, it's that simple.

It's something you can carry with you all the time. It must be the best addictive substance/device of all time. It helps you get through the day , it helps you go to sleep , it helps you wake up in the morning, it has helped my sex life massively in terms of controlling my orgasm and being able to get erect again quickly--, and it's good for you!! it reduces the risk of prostate cancer and other problems with men's plumbing . It fills in time in boring work meetings thinking about it, planning the next session, remembering previous sessions....

OK here's the explanation

I first wanked myself at age 11- when I should point out I was very innocent about everything!I was n't trying to wank, for a very simple reason- I did n't know you could. very sheltered upbringing, no big brothers etc. I accidentally (or instinctively) touched my cock, when drying myself after a shower - it grew hard and felt lovely, so for whatever reason, I started to move my foreskin back and forward over my now engorged head. Within what seemed like seconds , I felt the most amazing sensation that I had ever had literally all over my body, from my balls, going up my back right up to the top of my head.
I immediately stopped and took my hand away. I was actually frightened! My penis was twitching but I had not reached what I subsequently learnt to be the point of no return, and my cock gradually subsided and grew soft. It took me a while for my body to stop shaking though!!

I said nothing to anybody and did the exact same process a few more times without cumming.

Relecting much later as an adult, I wonder if that is why I have such good control over my orgasms now, I can edge for a very very long time. . . . . .

Anyhow soon the inevitable happened. I was touching myself a few weeks afterwards and had my first proper orgasm with emmission - wow how utterly utterly amazing that felt.....I have n't stopped since.

one thing led to another and I discovered I had the happy ability to achieve multiple orgasms, up to 9 or 10 per wanking session. In my teens , wanking sessions were daily, by the way. They needed to be because the "virus" had bitten me hard, no question about it, and was not going to let me go, so by the time I first had "proper" penetrative sex , I had cum 100's of times.

The rest , as they say, is history. . . . . .

I 'm sure this is a common experience, would love to hear of others

next time - top wanks? or wanks that could have got me into serious trouble?
what do i wank over? , I will let you know all
I'm thinking about it

1 comment:

Blog Archive said...

Wow ... this is great. I started wanking before I can even remember, which means probably around age three or so. I think it can be an activity either separate from sex or integrated into sex ... particularly if it's something you're very fond of. I, for one, love watching men jerk off in front of me/all over me. If it's what you're into, I say grab hold and embrace it! (Er, no pun intended.)